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My not-so-perfect life
Created on 2005-08-04 17:10:18 (#7929624), last updated 2006-03-12
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Basic Info| Name: | xstarvemepretty |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 07-17 |
| Location: | San Diego, California, United States |
BioMy Ana journal
This is my not-so-perfect life. I am have eating diorders. I guess I'm ED-NOS. I also Self-Injure. This is me, all out, all real. Don't like it? Get lost. And these are to poems to discribe the not-so-perfect side of me:
To Anorexia:
Looking into the mirror...
Who is this person I see
Staring back at me?
Stab me in the stomach
I dont deserve to live pain free.
Where is the thin careless child
That was here so long ago?
Whispering in my ear...
'I think you know.'
My reflection in the mirror
Begins to shift and change
She looks me in the eyes
I'm going insane.
'Fight threw the hunger pains
And dont take even one bite'
She convinces me
That everything im doing is right.
My best friend...
My greatest opposition
Taking away my life
Making all of my decisions.
She is ana..
My best friend ana..
She will make me perfect...
And take me to nirvana.
to bulimia:
On my knees
Once again,
Staring down
Looking for the end
Just once more
That's all its gonna take
Watering eyes
It seems so fake
Must be quiet
Or else they will hear
Painful gagging
Endless fear
The bitter taste of bile
Just isnt enough
I wanna see the blood
I must be tough
Standing up
Looking down
How did my life
Get so turned around?
See the mirror
She tells no lies
Doesn't give smiles
Only cries
Sink full of 'holy' water
To wash away the sins
That not even an ocean
Could even begin
A knocking on the door
Am I okay?
Yeah...
Just like I was yesterday.
This is my not-so-perfect life. I am have eating diorders. I guess I'm ED-NOS. I also Self-Injure. This is me, all out, all real. Don't like it? Get lost. And these are to poems to discribe the not-so-perfect side of me:
To Anorexia:
Looking into the mirror...
Who is this person I see
Staring back at me?
Stab me in the stomach
I dont deserve to live pain free.
Where is the thin careless child
That was here so long ago?
Whispering in my ear...
'I think you know.'
My reflection in the mirror
Begins to shift and change
She looks me in the eyes
I'm going insane.
'Fight threw the hunger pains
And dont take even one bite'
She convinces me
That everything im doing is right.
My best friend...
My greatest opposition
Taking away my life
Making all of my decisions.
She is ana..
My best friend ana..
She will make me perfect...
And take me to nirvana.
to bulimia:
On my knees
Once again,
Staring down
Looking for the end
Just once more
That's all its gonna take
Watering eyes
It seems so fake
Must be quiet
Or else they will hear
Painful gagging
Endless fear
The bitter taste of bile
Just isnt enough
I wanna see the blood
I must be tough
Standing up
Looking down
How did my life
Get so turned around?
See the mirror
She tells no lies
Doesn't give smiles
Only cries
Sink full of 'holy' water
To wash away the sins
That not even an ocean
Could even begin
A knocking on the door
Am I okay?
Yeah...
Just like I was yesterday.
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